WORK♥

So i have been a employee at Kmart for exactley 8 days :) Thats right.. I have been working for over a week now♥ so excited! Yes its only Kmart but hey its a job correct?! and in that week i have had the most aggravating customers lol. Well rude anyways. I have had a total void because one of them didnt want to give me their phone number and have had one of my old crushes to come thru my line and had to ring them up. Talkin about awkward, didnt no what to say to him or anything. But hey maybe i get to see him again :l Kinda brought feelings that i didnt know i still had for him but hey. That is plenty enough aabout that. 

But work is awesome:) My feet are fine until one hour before its time to leave so HOPEFULLY they'll get thru it all by the end of this week......

But that is how my first work week went so far :) Keep tuned:)

Reliving parts of life.

For the past year now every time i lay down or just try to relax its like i 'relive' the most dramatic parts of my life. I can hear everything that was said, and can see everything so clearly and the exact same emotions comes rushing back to me.
Told momma that i think i may have STPD but thats for people who has seen life threatening events (ex. a murder, robbery etc) So i know thats not it.
I just wish one night i can get to bed at a decent hour and not stay up to 2,3,4 oclock in the morning every single night. and one night i can be stress, emotional free from all the memories from 2007 and beyond.

oh baby baby baby

from the title of the blog you might can go with one or a million things of what this is about. but its about babies!

I am 24 years old, single, and i want my own family. Yes i want my own family. I see piratically atleast once a month on my facebook that someone is expecting a child, someone is getting married, someone just got engaged. and i cant help but think "When is it my turn" and "why not me." It got a little bit easier until about July at the end of the month and my Aunt was at the end of her pregnancy. And it just sunk in, shes going to have a baby, her 2nd baby at that.
And when she was in labor having my cousin i wanted to be the one on the bed giving birth to a innocent little baby, i was so cranky that day because of it. Everytime i see a baby it makes me want to be one I dont know what it is. I have raised 2 kids (my brothers) and even thou i have seen a child be born and seen the pain and know how miserable pregnancy can be i still want to become a mother. Now i know that it wont happen until God sees its My time to become a Wife and a mother i know its got to be in his time. but i dont know why i want to become a wife and mother so bad. My marnally side is really getin the best of me.

Baby Evan is HERE♥

so awesome!

Recently back in june i started up my official designing page up on facebook and i am also in some hydrocephalus groups on facebook as well a blog for my design page, well today i logged into facebook and went to check out the hydrocephalus group and my face lit up when i seen MY design on the hydrocephalus wall :) That is when ou know your work is getting awesome, simple things like that let me know that im good♥♥

10 commandments of life *not from the Bible*

Someone has written these beautiful words. Must read and try to understand the deep meaning of it. They are like the ten commandments to follow in life all the time. 

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.
 

2] Why is a Car's WINDSHIELD so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.
 

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamonds! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.
 

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than losing your eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.
 

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away today's PEACE.

" Our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us."

Masking DOWNPACKED!

I have tried nearly a week now to get premade masking down packed! Well today i GOT IT !! YAY.