missing someone.

Ever feel like just one glimpse of someone could make your day feel just a little bit brighter then what it does at that moment. Just one hug or one kiss would make it a million times better. Or hey even just a snap or a text saying ‘Hey’ would literally turn your whole day around? Well thats what i’m feeling at this moment. Just one text. just something to let me know that he’s thinking about me would make my day a whole lot brighter and have me smiling ear to ear. That is what i want and what i need right now. I just miss him so much.

And ya know it sucks because before i was happy with just me. I was happy being the single woman who never dated, the girl who never wished to date. Yeah i had crushes but never did i once feel like i needed that hug or that text from a certain someone. This sucks!

life update!

ok. So ALOT has happened within the last 11 months and when i say alot i mean alot.
ok so here it goes!

1. my momma started dating a guy named mike.
   don't get me wrong hes a great guy but its still just a little weird but its getting better.
2. i started talking to a guy last june.
   but on the down fall, we broke it off for a while almost 2 weeks ago.... thats another story. 
3. we moved!
   yup we moved into a house with my mothers boyfriend. 
4. last may my uncle got into a motorcycle accident.
   left him disabled and hospital bed bound.
5. on march 5th he passed away...
   and i miss him OH SO MUCH! I want my Uncle Robert back sooo bad!!

So with number one. 

Last June my momma went to a concert with a coworker from work, Journey to be exact. And they started talking early May but didnt let us know until 3 days before the concert.

Number two: On June 13th i got a facebook message asking me if i wanted to hangout with a guy that i had a crush on back in high school. He came over to the house a few times i went to his, went out to see the fourth of July fireworks and everything. Every thing was a dream come true. But things went sour with a certain something thats going on at the moment. And i'm hoping we will be able to get back on track because well, i can't get him out of my head. and i can't wait to post about it. He's such an amazing guy and man, i fell fast! 

Number three: Back in August (They moved pretty dang fast) they started looking for a place to move into. They looked for 5 months before they found the one they liked. Its in a safe neighborhood and the boys (my brothers) actually have kids to play with now. Its been such a great time living here. And on Feb 25th we moved in. its actually been a great 3 months in the new place.

Number 4&5: May 7th 2016 i was at work and got a phone call. My uncle has been in a motorcycle accident and my momma was going to the hospital said i could stay at work or go to the hospital, well i chosed the hospital, i had to know he was going to be ok. he fought for almost 9 months and he was doing so good. a week before he passed he actually was wanting to get up and learn how to walk again. But he wasnt meant to lay in a hospital bed for the rest of his life. He was always on the go always doing something with his wonderful kids, he wasnt happy and he deff wasnt the Robert that i grew up to know and love when i was a child. I know hes happy now walking on them streets of gold and smiling down on his family. 

So thats my life update. hopefully next time it won't be that long.

wow!

Wow i dont know where to begin. Life has been going. and i dont know if thats going fast, going good, going bad. So its just going. I still work at Sams Club as a cashier. I love it there. They work with my schedule and well thats important.
Right now my brothers are 10 and 8 and they are starting to become a pain in my tail-in. The more i try the more i feel like im failing. I don't understand it. The 8 year old is whiny the entire time after he gets home and the 10 year old i just dont know what to think about him. Sometimes hes so sweet and then other times its like hes a totally different child.
I believe they are getting to the point where they need a father around. Its gettin really hard and i don't know what to do or what to think. Like i said sometimes it easy others i feel really down and depressed like nothing will ever get better.
Through out the past year i have picked up reading very heavily. I can read practically any book in 2 days. The 50shades of Grey triology i read in 9 days. They were much longer books then normally. I enjoyed them.
Reading is my Get-Away-from-LIFE techniques. It works for me. for now. before it was crocheting. Now its reading.
Music well thats SAM HUNT AND ANDY GRAMMER ! !!!
NOTHING beats them two. LOVE THEM !

My ultimate opinion about 50 shades !

I can guess that 99% of the world has heard about 'Fifty Shades of Grey' book OR movie. And i can almost guarantee that you have heard that its one of the worst books ever and possibly one of the worst movies ever come to picture.

Well This is MY REVIEW or well my opinion on this book [Trilogy] 

I heard about this book a few years ago right when it came out and it was instantly getting the public's attention. It got good reviews and it got terrible opinion reviews.

My review starts now. 

I picked up this book about 2 weeks ago to see what the hype was. And it took me exactly 9 1/2 days to finish the trilogy. I came to find out when i was reading the books that it actually has an amazing story to it. Christian is a guy that knows what he wants when he wants and he gets the job done. Every woman's dream is to find a man who knows exactly what he wants and well Anastasia did. And she helps with so much stuff that hes went thru in his past. 

There is some 'exotic scenes' in the book but they last about 2 pages each. Why put down a book for just about 10 pages. You can easily skip over them pages.

If i had to put my review or my opinion of this trilogy it would be "Its the ultimate chic flick in a book" 

This is a really good book. And i honestly hate that this book has got so much negative attention just because words of someone. Give the book a chance and i find out for your self. You dont have to read the 'scenes' or the 'contract' but read the STORY that the book gives. I promise you it wont leave you disappointed. There is actually some parts where i just laughed because i felt some of it was funny, theres some parts that made me mad and theres some parts that gave me 'butterflies' and then theres parts that made me so happy. The Author E L James gives so much detail that you can actually see what the person is thinking and what the do. and how they act toward one another. This book is by far the best book i've read!

QUOTES from the BOOK ! And yes there is a spoiler in the end !

All them babies !

In my previous posts I wrote about my Aunt and Cousin being pregnant with little boys.

well, THEY ARE BORN!

Bradley Cole was born on June 26th, 2014 

And Baby Wyatt Paul was born on August 5th, 2014.

OMGEE my birthday is tomorrow ! The BIG 26

My mother is on 2nd... lordy how mercy !

So today marks 2 weeks that i have been watching my little brothers while momma is on 2nd.

 heres a back ground kinda story.........

so about 7 years ago my little brother was born, yes brother, anywho with that being said he was born in may and about in October after carowinds was closed for winter she got a job at walmart well that didnt last because they were only giving her about 17 hours a week, who can survive on 17 hours a week?! especially since you have pratically a newborn, ok well a 4 month oldish and a 20 month old who is still in pampers due to his hydrocephalus, cerebral palsy?! but anywho. walmart didnt last then she went to SMX well she moved up from there and they laid her off among 50 other people that night they laid every one off except for managers. so then she claimed unemployment for quit a while and after that was up and every little penny we saved was gone she called up adecco and explained to them her situaction and they got her on over at Cardinal Health. well she was at Cardinal Health on 2nd shift for about 2 years and then went to 3rd shift for about 3 years and now shes back on 2nd shift.  so now your all caught up <3 p="">
Anywho what i was saying.......

today it has been exactly 2 weeks for me watching Lou and Sam while momma is back on 2nd shift and other then we all catching hand foot mouth disease i say its been goin smoothly. I mean Sam the 7 year old has been a icky mood because he wants momma here with him instead of at work but he's dealing the best he can. Lou hes ok with it. Me i'm loving it ! yes they get irritable and i get irritable but it working. i can get them on a schedule now and for some reason while momma was on 3rd i couldnt do it i'd try and then it would go terribly wrong.

So starting next week im goin to be doin a craft a day with them  going to get them some stickies some glue and probably some other little stuff like gems. but gonna have to go to probably big lots or dollar tree to see what i can find for them. And to make them more 'interested' in them we'll do a craft a day for momma and it should gather their attention and then after they are done with that i'll have to think of something else to do with them :) 

but thats my days so far and my plans coming up next week to do with the boys.